My Story

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Our Baby is gone but still in our hearts.
Madison Paige




Madison was born to the suprise of everyone even her family. She was a happy little girl and very hungry she was born on March 26,2004 at 6 pounds 13 ounces At 12:17pm. Born right to her due date. Her family although shocked was very happy. She grew so fast in her own world she rolled over at one month old. And oh how she loved to stand up. She always had to know what was going on around her. I was so over protective of her I wouldn't let anyone tell me what I was going to do with her. She went every where with me. We had so much fun with her, she loved to play the game with grandma she would put her hands out to her to go to her and Madison would tuck her little head in my shoulder and she would laugh to herself. She would do the same to me with her brother Braxton she loved that game. But it was when her papa Darb would walk by her and didn't say something to her she would be so mad. She was always the center of attention wherever we went. There were times in the store when the checker would quit checking us out just so she could make Madison laugh. Her brother Brayton wanted her so bad that is all her ever talked about. Brayton was also the one that named her and I was so proud of him for this he picked out Madison Paige. Her other brother Braxton is the one that started calling her Princess/ which in turn was her other name. At times when people said Madison they would stop them to say no it is "Princess" especially her cousin Dillon. It was later that her sister's that live in Salt Lake came up and watched her all summer getting to know there little sister. Madison took to Alex like nothing I have ever known. I told her the one day to go home because she would cry when I would take her out of Alex's arms, she did the same with her brother Brax. But all of them equally adored her.

What Makes a Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother
And I know I heard him say.

A Mother has a baby
This we know is true.
But God can you be a Mother
When your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can He replied
With confidence in His voice
I give many women babies
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb
But there's no need to stay

I just don't understand this, God
I want my baby here
He took a breath and cleared His throat
And then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say

"We go to earth to learn our lessons
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quickly
My mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are ok
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me
Until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home
They'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.

Through some on earth may not realize you are a Mother,
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
And you know you're the best one!

All of our friends were so great to come to the need of me an my family. I do love you all and want to say thank you to all of you. There are so many and the way that you helped me when she was born. I appreciate all of you and the way you have been there for me. And everyone. We are all having a hard time and it is good to know that you are there for me. I don't know what I would do without all of you.


It was only tragically that she was taken on Oct 22,2004 I was going to pick her up from the sitters and take her to her first poker game, and the next day her first Haloween Party. I was so excited I had everything packed and ready to go that I got the news that she was gone. I needed my mom there so bad I couldn't wait for someone else to go and get her. She was so loved by her father,sisters,brothers and grandparents. Your dad was so excited to see you the way he would put his hands out to play with you. They are all having a very hard time with this and missing her so much I don't know what to do anymore but I know that she is in the arms of my Grandma Shaw and she is taking good care of her. She is forever in my heart and always on my mind. Know that we all love you sweet baby girl. And would do anything to stop the ache in my heart and the pain from the empty arms.



What is love?
"What is love?" I asked my father as I looked into his face,
As he gave me one more kiss and hug and one more tight embrace.
"You'll find it soon, as you walk the path on the place we call Earth"
But now you must prepare yourself for the joy that we call birth.

I soon found myself into the arms of someone they called "Mother"
I also gained a father, three sisters, and two brothers.
They nurtured me and showed me love,we played and hugged and kissed.
I knew deep down, despite my age that I had found my true bliss.

The next time that I found love was when I met my Grandmas
I also felt true love around the ones they call my Grandpa's
You all were so adoring and showed me one more side
True love among the family will always live inside.

I want to thank you Lord above when he held me close that day
When I went to sleep so long and life slowly slipped away.
As my spirit left its earthly state and ascended to him above
I turned and looked at all of you and I had answered "What is Love?"

Sylvia Fred and family- I want to thank you all for the things that you have done for me Sylvia came up to me and I knew that everyone knew how much I loved my daughter from the words that she said to me. I am so lucky to have you in my life you are always there to help me when I need it and you are so great to the boys. I know that I wouldn't let you take Madison because I said that I would miss her to much, and you know how much I really do. Fred you did a wonderful poem I still read two or three times a week for the words mean a lot to me you have always been so great to all of us. Tawnie you ran and ran so much for me you and your mom both and I am so greatful that you did this for me for I don't know if I would have got it done if you hadn't and never once complained you told my mom you didn't know how I would get through this and you were worried about me. Then when Dillon walked in and asked were Madison was I looked up at you I was trying to hold the tears out of my eyes and I saw you and you were crying, I looked at Dillon and said that Madison was with Grandma Shaw and gave him a hug the look on your face was priceless it told me that I could get through it for I had the strength to help little Dilly out. I want to thank all of you Cameron for singing, Tobie for her kind words, and Matt showing me how much he really does care about us. You are all so great and love you more than I could ever say, and want to say thank you for everything that you have done. You helped me to get through the hardest time in my life.

Scott Lorale and Family - You were so good to me through this hard time you dropped everything and came right up to me like you had no where else to go. You have never missed anything that has to do with my family and I am greatful Scott is even the one that took me home from the hospital and helped my mom why the boys were wrestling and I was at the hospital and was so proud of her when she went to him at the Misty and Christy house the weekend before. The kind words he gave to me when she was gone at the viewing on how she was supposed to be here to tease her the way he always does. Lorale you ran and ran and found everything that I needed and the dvd that you had made up was great. Misty and Christy all the pictures that you had for Madison I am so glad that you took and all the ones you have done for the boys. Angie you were good to me and the way you are always there for everything I am grateful for all the things that you all have done for me and all the help that you have given me with it all. I am truely blessed to have you in my family and in my life I will forever treasure the pictures and the dvd that you have made for me. I love you all.

Lissy- You were there when Madison was born and you got to tell everyone the news the only person I had to tell was you. I know how much you loved are little princess and the way that Dillon adored her so much. You did all the running that needed to be done for me as well I wanted to tell you thank for all you did for her.

Mom and Dad- you mean so much to me and made it possible for me to get through all of us the game Madison loved to play with you and hide in my shoulder and the first time Darby decided to hold her and she threw up all over him the memories are priceless and the way that Darby would take me into his arms and let me cry. I love you both so much you did more for me then I ever thought was possible to do. I love you both so much and I am truly blessed to have you as my parents. You have always done so much for me and set such stong standards for me that I am forever greatful. I love you both. You were there at my side to help with everything and I couldn't have made it through this without you. I can't express how much you both mean to me.

Dad- Thank you for coming in and helping the way that you did it means a lot to me. And I will forever wear my ring with pride. I love you and I am happy you were there to help me.

I want to thank all of my friends and family and Elkhorn for all that you have done for me Shawn the words you said to me outside. And the ones that he spoke at the funeral. I couldn't ask for a better man. Jennifer for all of your help. Darinda for coming up and helping. Mary for making the programs. Elkhorn is a great place and I am thankful for them being there. Alison for the poem and all of her help. Laree for taking the kids for me. Christa for all the extras. Kay for all the help he gave with me when Madison was here letting me bring her to work and telling her he was going to save her from the disfuctional family and the look on his face when he heard the horrible news. All of you you help me to get through all of this. I love you all and remember forever all the great things you did for me.

The days are getting harder and harder with her gone and I'm missing her so much I love you so much Baby girl I would do anything to hold you one more time.

We will never forget our little angel for she meant everything to all of us.










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